Eh......

I'm all pissed off today. My money is nil, I am having "guy friction", my body is beyond tired and I still don't feel that I have the time I need to get things done. But that last thing everyone feels. I never thought I'd say there are not enough hours in the day, but I have been saying it lately. I am scared about that.

And what is the thing I am thinking of doing right now to get the cranky out? Drinking. However, this guy I work with kind of gave me a dissertation on the evils of drinking and what he said was nothing I hadn't heard before. I also pointed out his hypocrisy because he is a smoker. But it wasn't what he said that got to me. It was the fact that he went out of his way to let me know that he didn't think I should be drinking. How sweet is that? I was kind of touched.

But also speaking of being tired, my GOD all the biking I have been doing is draining the very essence of sanity out of me. I started taking these vitamins for the soreness I felt in my knees and they have helped immensely. However, my thighs are sore and I just have that all over body tiredness that no amount of sleep can help. Perhaps a massage. But the problem is that when I try to get a deep tissue massage, no one will do it because I have been told that i haven't been training hard enough for one. But maybe now that has changed, as what i have just described warrants a small Asian woman to put on a pair of soccer cleats and jump up and down on my body. Then rub eucalyptus on my skin. (Sounds like a fetishist fantasy doesn't it??)

Well today is my day off and I am spending it holed up in my room, watching TV and eating Thai food. I need a day like this. And soon when I move into a new apartment, I will have many more days like this. I realised that living at home is what has made me drink a lot more than I should, as I realise that I have a seriously dysfunctional family and I just stay out of the house as much as possible to get away from them. But when I have my own space, oh how glorious it will be. I will be able to get so much done, like more writing, painting, knitting, dinner parties......